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Apr. 17th, 2017 | 10:46 am

Did I ask to be made?

Surely, no one is asking for me, as I sit in the bottom bin for another day of another week. This morning I receive the indignity of the red sticker. Half off of half of the discount price in a pennies-on-the-dollar charity thrift store. They literally cannot give me away.

What am I? I'm not even sure, myself.

Perhaps I'm a bear, maybe a dog, or a monkey with no tail. The snout is ill-formed, the ears odd-shaped and uneven. Pieced together from scraps of old socks and pajamas and baby blanket, that was supposed to reflect my purpose. Aunt Vickie would hum the song “Coat of Many Colors” as she made me, would tell the story of the girl in the song and the man in the desert. But the child for whom I was born took one look at me, and, like Joseph, into the well I went. Down to the bottom of the toy-bin, rarely to see light again.

My caravan to the next destination carried me in a box with other long-discarded playthings. The store's staff laughed when they saw me. One dared another to tag me with a price, so he did – the dollar asked for a “broken” toy.

Enough self-pity. In their hurry to place the double-discount stickers, my keepers have placed me on top of the heap. Come, boys and girls – I dare you to reject me!

What's this? A hand reaches to me, hesitant at first, then grasping my arm. My head turns and I see a girl's face looking at me. No, her eyes are unfocused. Now she holds me with both hands, picking me up.

“Shelly, are you sure you want that one?” her mother asks.

The girl doesn't answer at first. She strokes my back and face. Feels the long-worn, softened fabric. She knows not to sniff – we all smell like old dust here.

“How much is he?” Shelly asks.

“It's only 25 cents,” her father replies, “But that is one weird-looking animal.”

My new companion holds my tummy to her face.

“He 'looks' fine to me!”


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Entry for LJ Idol: Season 10, Week 15; Topic: Patchwork Heart. The title comes from the Bible verse, Psalms 139:14. As for the novel that inspired this story, I've left a few clues =)

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lolaslaughter

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from: lolaslaughter
date: Apr. 17th, 2017 06:13 pm (UTC)
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This made me cry (in a good way!!) ❤️❤️ 'The Velveteen Rabbit' is one of my favorite stories and this entry brought me right back to that book!! ❤️🐰❤️ You really made me feel for the toy and I absolutely adored the innocent and non judgmental view of Shelly!! Such a great entry!! 😁😁

Edited at 2017-04-17 06:15 pm (UTC)

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beldarzfixon

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from: beldarzfixon
date: Apr. 17th, 2017 06:44 pm (UTC)
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I didn't have VR in mind, but there are some similarities -- of course, I've always seen plush friends as "real"

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i_17bingo

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from: i_17bingo
date: Apr. 17th, 2017 10:22 pm (UTC)
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Oh, poor dogbearmonkey. Your suffering made the sweetness of the ending that much more satisfying. I really enjoyed this piece.

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beldarzfixon

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from: beldarzfixon
date: Apr. 18th, 2017 04:16 pm (UTC)
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Thanks! If I could sew, I'd consider making dogbearmonkeys to share the love =)

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Rebecca

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from: beeker121
date: Apr. 18th, 2017 04:11 pm (UTC)
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Beardogmonkey isn't the right toy for just anyone, but eventually someone had to recognize the love with which he/she was made, even if not the skill. This is warm and happy, and the POV is wonderful.

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beldarzfixon

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from: beldarzfixon
date: Apr. 18th, 2017 04:18 pm (UTC)
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When one's primary sense is touch rather than sight, being the softest then becomes the advantage. I like playing with the points of view -- this story wasn't first-person until I actually started writing it down.

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from: d0gs
date: Apr. 18th, 2017 05:08 pm (UTC)
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this made me cry too <3 i love the ending so much!

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beldarzfixon

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from: beldarzfixon
date: Apr. 19th, 2017 05:52 pm (UTC)
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*hands you tissue* Thanks!

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Teo Says

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from: eternal_ot
date: Apr. 19th, 2017 08:31 am (UTC)
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Ah! This was cool. I too enjoyed the POV and and happy that Shelly found her mate or viceversa. A nice take!

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beldarzfixon

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from: beldarzfixon
date: Apr. 19th, 2017 05:52 pm (UTC)
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Looks like they found each other. Thank you!

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beldarzfixon

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from: beldarzfixon
date: Apr. 19th, 2017 05:54 pm (UTC)
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Thanks! My significant other and I used to write scenarios and run sessions of the game "Fuzzy Heroes" in which players use their stuffed animals and toys (pre-dating "Toy Story" btw) -- so it became very easy for me to see from the stuffies' point of view.

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bleodswean

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from: bleodswean
date: Apr. 19th, 2017 05:26 pm (UTC)
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AWWWWWWWWWWWW! I love how this flows.

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beldarzfixon

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from: beldarzfixon
date: Apr. 19th, 2017 05:55 pm (UTC)
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Thanks! It surprised me how brief the overall story turned out to be -- but then it leaves you plenty of time for the other entries =)

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adoptedwriter

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from: adoptedwriter
date: Apr. 19th, 2017 08:30 pm (UTC)
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Aw..... I loved this!

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beldarzfixon

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from: beldarzfixon
date: Apr. 20th, 2017 02:19 pm (UTC)
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Thanks!

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Banana Galaxy

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from: banana_galaxy
date: Apr. 19th, 2017 09:40 pm (UTC)
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Bless that child. They're good at not judging things that others do.

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beldarzfixon

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from: beldarzfixon
date: Apr. 20th, 2017 02:21 pm (UTC)
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Even (or especially) with impaired vision, a child can get the perspective a grown-up fails to grasp. But it's never too late to "see" the world their way. =)

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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors

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from: halfshellvenus
date: Apr. 20th, 2017 12:52 am (UTC)
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That poor toy-- made with such love and purpose, only to be immediately rejected by its child. It's nice that it was found by someone who would appreciate it!

My mother brought us a couple of cute stuffed animals from garage sales/thrift stores-- because, as she put it, "They haven't been loved!"

One of those toys, a brown teddy bear, went to camp with our daughter for several years, and the plush stuffed elephant is one of the few toys still out on display in her room. :)

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beldarzfixon

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from: beldarzfixon
date: Apr. 20th, 2017 02:25 pm (UTC)
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I got an unusual-looking second-hand plush once in my teens, and planned on putting it in my first car. (So you never travel alone) Alas, its age was too much and eventually its seams burst with cloth too frayed to repair.

Within months of getting my first car, I was given a Pound Puppy, who navigated for me for many years. Today I travel with a lemur and a rubber duck. =)

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tonithegreat

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from: tonithegreat
date: Apr. 20th, 2017 03:22 am (UTC)
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Ah, I love the Franken-critter and your artfully spun trail of clues! I wonder too if you hinted that Shelly's vision may be less than average. I'm a sucker for a beloved inanimate thing. This was beautiful and very enjoyable.

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beldarzfixon

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from: beldarzfixon
date: Apr. 20th, 2017 02:28 pm (UTC)
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Thanks for spotting the influence of a different "Shelly" =)

I did make the child blind (or at least visually impaired, relying on touch more than sight to enjoy the world), a nod to the only people the book/movie's Monster found solace with.

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baxaphobia

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from: baxaphobia
date: Apr. 20th, 2017 06:11 pm (UTC)
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Awww. sweet anb somewhat sad.

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beldarzfixon

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from: beldarzfixon
date: Apr. 20th, 2017 06:20 pm (UTC)
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Hopefully more sweet, tho

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marlawentmad

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from: marlawentmad
date: Apr. 20th, 2017 09:38 pm (UTC)
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Wonderful piece!

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beldarzfixon

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from: beldarzfixon
date: Apr. 21st, 2017 01:02 pm (UTC)
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Thank you!

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Shadow Wolf Byrd

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from: shadowwolf13
date: Apr. 21st, 2017 01:45 am (UTC)
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So much love! <3

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beldarzfixon

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from: beldarzfixon
date: Apr. 21st, 2017 01:03 pm (UTC)
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Thanks! <3

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dmousey

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from: dmousey
date: Apr. 21st, 2017 02:34 am (UTC)
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I really liked this. Beautifully told. Hugs and peace~~~

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beldarzfixon

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from: beldarzfixon
date: Apr. 21st, 2017 01:03 pm (UTC)
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Thank you, and peace to you as well =)

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